Well, I got an apartment with Moriah. I keep looking at everything I have and need to pack and I am trying to decide what to take and what to leave at home. I think it will be nice to have a place of my own (with Moriah :), but it I feel like it won't feel like home. It is going to be full of hand-me-down furniture (which is fine and I am happy to have, but it was someone else's). I keep trying to remind myself that I am young and most people don't have there homes full of nice furniture and things the second they start out. It makes me realize how materialistic I am. I like to have nice things. It doesn't have to be the most expensive by any means, but I like to like it. I am glad Moriah is moving in now instead of in October. I hate being the only one in a place. I don't need to even have someone home, it just makes me feel better knowing they will be coming home.

My throat is getting sore! It just started about 2 hours ago and I am very sad. My coworker and her husband just got over being sick and I think she gave it to me... t.t

I have been feeling overwhelmed by things. So many changes are happening and even though lots of them are good it feels like it is all happening at once and so fast. I just feel like when I think about them all... I don't want to. I feel like I am ten steps behind and the normal things I need to do have gone out the window. I need to take a second to catch my breath and just breathe. *sigh* The other day at work I almost started crying and I didn't even know I was upset. I was so surprised by how suddenly it overcame me that I started laughing and as soon as it had come it was gone. Weird!

On a brighter note, I am going to a the John Mayer concert with a group of girlfriends and I am totally stoked! ;)    It is going to be lots of fun!

I was thinking of my friends in Korea today and missing them, too.... I am really looking forward to the fall but I don't want to rush things, life goes too quickly as it is.

It's going to be hard to say goodbye to Hongbae tonight. I can't cry because he really doesn't want to go, so I will have to be strong for him. I hope he can come back in the fall.

Life is so weird sometimes. I decided to casually start looking at houses about two weeks ago. As I began the process I was feeling nervous and very overwhelmed. I didn't have the idea that I would buy anything right away but I thought I could start looking to see what was available and how much things are going for...just get a feel for the market, I guess. I looked at one house, and the realtor who took me was acting like I would be putting a bid in, which I guess it's there job to sell houses so, I suppose that should be expected. I can see how someone in a similar situation with a little less will than I have could be "influenced" into getting something they don't really want. I, however, was less than impressed. It wasn't a bad house but I don't think I would have been happy there. I am looking at very inexpensive houses, but I also want something I like and will be happy in. I wasn't sure I would even be able to find something like that. Then it happened.

We drove into this little neighborhood in Firestone park and pulled up to the house. When we went in to look at the house I was not sold immediately but I did like it and could see potential. I new there was going to be an open house on Sunday and took a friend to see it. She liked it too. I mean, obviously, it needs work but it was doable. not ridiculous amounts, I felt like I could handle it. I found out someone else had a bid in on the house and it would be closing early in the week. Hmmm... What to do? I liked it, really liked it. Not head-over-heels- not thinking clearly, kind of liked it. It was a thought through, rational kind of liked it. I went home prayed about it and decided to call my realtor (Yes, on a Sunday! =/ ). I placed a bid that night and didn't hear back until Tuesday. At first I felt so nervous about it. Had I offered too much? Would I actually get it (scary)? Then as I prayed about it I really felt okay about it. If I got it, It might be scary and stressful but that's life, that's part growing up and being an adult. Sometimes you are the one on the bottom of the heap, there is no one further down to pass things to, you are responsible and that's it. You have to deal with it. If I didn't get it something else would come along. Well, I didn't get it, and that's okay, but I had really started to get excited about the idea of having my own place, getting to decorate it, and cook in MY kitchen. Alas, I will have to wait and my search will continue...

I am glad that I started looking, though. I feel like I learned a lot. I learned about getting pre-approval for a loan, and I am learning about dealing with realtors, and looking at houses, figuring out what I like, what I don't like, and now I have made an offer; so I am more familiar just about everything but actually getting the house.:) I am such a baby about new things. I hate doing things I haven't done before. I am always afraid. I feel such a lack of control. So much of what happens is based on someone else. God really uses life to teach us the things we need to learn. I just hope I learn them well...

I will keep you all updated.